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Chance
For every little bit of pain inside me, there's always going to be a chance for healing. I never understood this before, but for once I feel like I can breathe again.
When pain was all you'd ever felt, happiness seems strange. Scary, even. You feel like you don't deserve the happiness, like it's not meant for you. It frightens and excites you at the same time. You're intrigued at the same time as wanting to run away, but you stay and let it fill you because on some level your desire for the happiness is intense. Extreme. Almost bestial.
Holding back on your emotions and feeling for most of your life, holding back your rage and fear, your sorrows... It turns you into three different people. The one you portray to the outside world, the one you truly are and that you try to protect, and the one that wants to destroy you with every little bit of self-loathing that you've got.
Finding the way to make yourself happy, after all those years of pain, you will do whatever it takes to protect th
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Literature
Falling Apart
Falling apart, I'm on the run
Don't know what I've done
Fallen from grace, I'm losing face
Can't see my anger
And through all my fears
Beyond all the years
I hear the silence
Do you feel me?
I'm falling apart, dying
You can't save me
I'm weighed down, pressured
You can't heal me
Closing my ears, drowning in tears
Do you feel my sorrow?
It's destroying my mind, breaking my heart
I feel myself die
And through all my fears
Beyond all the years
I hear the silence
I'm falling apart, dying
You can't save me
I'm weighed down, pressured
You can't heal me
And I shut the door
Your view is no more
I'll run away
You can't see my face
Hear me screaming
And through all my fears
Beyond all the years
I hear the silence
I'm falling apart, dying
You can't save me
I'm weighed down, pressured
You can't heal me
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Literature
Society
Telling me I'm wrong
To believe what I believe
But I can see the bigger picture
Can you see it too?
Oppression and control
It's what society does
Do you wish to continue
Imprisoning us all?
Our norms are hypocritical
We're encouraged every day
To express ourselves and our opinions
But they do not let us truly say
What we feel and think is wrong
Unless we back it up
Back it up with quotes and opinions
From those higher up
Invalid and unstructured
If not reinforced by
Someone famous, someone powerful
And so we are ignored
We are not allowed to think freely
Unqualified to have opinions
Our minds are being slyly controlled
By faux-qualifications
Shaping the intelligent youths
To believe all that they are told
Fooling the masses that they are free
When it's all a mind control
We will never be free
Unless we break this mould
Take control of our own minds
Break the power's hold
Labelled with disorders
Told that we are sick
Looked down for being different
Because we see the truth
We see the bi
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Literature
Humanity
Humans are shallow
This we all know
Infuriating each other
They judge on appearance
It's all in their dress
Although it's only a costume
No self-respect
Low self-esteem
They hate themselves
No sense of nature
Bad sense of humour
Prisoners to society
Humanity is a test
And we have all failed
All we do is hurt
Destroy the world
And start again
Show them how to really live
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Literature
Grave
And on my tombstone it will say
(Albeit much to my dismay)
"Here lies Tara, one who was mad
But do not think of her as bad.
For though she was predominantly crazy,
She did her best, though some days was lazy.
She did not wish to take her life,
But she was tired of the strife."
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Literature
The World
It's so easy to blame others
This is your life
The way in which you act
The way you react
It's all in your own hands
The world is so corrupt
So many are so ugly inside
Always taking the easy route
The Faustian path
Never taking responsibility
Twisted minds, exceptionally hideous
Conscious of the pain they cause
But they do it anyway
Reflecting their inner demons
Their corruption causes pain
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The Asylum
It was dark. Was I dead? Blind? No... Just a prisoner in my own mind. Suddenly, the lights switched on, and what do I see? The room that was once a blinding white was now stained with crimson; blood. Six people lay dead before my feet. A man with greying hair and round glasses. His legs were broken, blood was gushing out from the multiple stab wounds in his back and neck. His white lab coat drenched in blood.
Two other men and three women, all middle aged -all nurses- lay in a pool of blood. Their bones broken; some with severed limbs, and all with stab wounds all over their bodies.
I looked down at my feet; blood. I looked at my hands; the bloody knife. The knife that had killed them was covered in the gleaming red liquid. The white straight jacket they had tried to force me in lay untarnished in the corner of the room.
Forgotten; like I would be when I left this place. Finally... Freedom.
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Literature
Fighting Spirit
Every day I'm fighting pain
Fear is all I'm living
And all I know was falling down
My world was disappearing
Open my eyes, make me realise
No matter what has happened
No matter where I've been
No matter what I've been through
No matter what I've seen
This is me, this is what I am
This is who I am now
I'll stay strong, I'll fight raw
I hope I won't lose me
All I felt inside was hate
Rage always filled my mind
Everything came crumbling down
Slapped by my own reality
Open my eyes, make me realise
No matter what has happened
No matter where I've been
No matter what I've been through
No matter what I've seen
This is me, this is what I am
This is who I am now
I'll stay strong, I'll fight raw
I hope I won't lose me
I have to live with what I can
I have to embrace my nightmares
Take in my darkness and defeat it
Before I can ever come back
No matter what has happened
No matter where I've been
No matter what I've been through
No matter what I've seen
This is me, this is what I am
This is who I a
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Literature
Memento Mori
Remember your mortality
That's what we never say
We always forget we are alive
Forget our death will come one day
Memento Mori
Live day by day
Night by night
That's what I should say
Remembering my life is short
So I'll throw away my pain
Can't let the sorrows of my world
Bring me down to my knees
I can't forget that I'm not here to stay
Must enjoy it while I can
Memento Mori
Live day by day
Night by night
That's what I should say
Remembering my life is short
So I'll throw away my pain
I can't let the world hurt me
I have to be strong
Have to resist the mechanics of society
Can't let them tell me what to do
I've got to live for me, Memento Mori
Live day by day
Night by night
That's what I should say
Remembering my life is short
So I'll throw away my pain
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Literature
Away From You
Every time I see you
We're back to where we started
Faking smiles, feigning ignorance
It's always the same
And I feel your eyes on me
Judging my every move
I know you're listening
Waiting for a reason to damn me
Because
You can't handle me
I'm nothing like you
I follow my own heart
I don't conform like you do
Condemn me all you like
I'll get away from you
You're always trying
To find out what I'm all about
You stalk me, interrogate me
You want to use the world against me
I feel your words
They try to break me
I hear your malice
I know you're waiting to strike
Because
You can't handle me
I'm nothing like you
I follow my own heart
I don't conform like you do
Condemn me all you like
I'll get away from you
Do what you want
It won't phase me
Try all your tricks
You can't catch me
It's like trying to catch smoke
It's impossible
So do what you want
I'll get away
I'll get away from you
You can't handle me
I'm nothing like you
I follow my own heart
I don't conform like you do
Condemn me all you
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Literature
Secret Box
My mouth sewn shut
So much I can't say
Sometimes I close my eyes
Sometimes I look the other way
I think I'm afraid
And it hurts
That I can't tell you how I feel
It's so frustrating
I don't know why I don't just try
I'm so afraid all the time
So I hide it in my secret box
I build it up inside
Why all the tension in my mind?
The standards for me are so high
I'm thinking twice all the time
I'm feeling trapped in my own mind
Pent up with pain
And it hurts
That I can't tell you how I feel
It's so frustrating
I don't know why I don't just try
I'm so afraid all the time
So I hide it in my secret box
You feed the demons in my mind
My fear and anger overcome by my pain
You can't see them, you don't know them
You can't hear me screaming
And it hurts
That I can't tell you how I feel
It's so frustrating
I don't know why I don't just try
I'm so afraid all the time
So I hide it in my secret box
I know you mean well
I know you don't know any better
But you need to open your eyes
You need to see the l
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Literature
Not Ready To Die
Poison gas in my room
Cornering me as I try to run
I can't escape, it's gonna get me
Can't let it take me
Can't let it shake me
Burning through me like acid
Eating at me from the inside
It gets worse as I try to fight it
There's no cure, I'm slowly slipping
I'm not ready to die
Blood boils with malice
There's venom in my soul
My mind is flaming
My bones are breaking
Won't let it judge me
Won't let it damn me
Burning through me like acid
Eating at me from the inside
It gets worse as I try to fight it
There's no cure, I'm slowly slipping
I'm not ready to die
My skin burns
My eyes bleed
The infection is spreading through me
My tears black
My blood burnt
Crying, dying
All is fading
I'm not ready to die
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Nobody Knows
She smiles
And you think to yourself
"What a fool"
She laughs
And you think to yourself
"How naive"
But I know the truth
Every time she smiles
She's crying inside
Every time she laughs
She's dying inside
And you'll never know
What she hides
Nobody knows
She smiles
And you think she's stupid
But she's already
Figured you out
She laughs
And you think she's easy
But she will never
Give in to you
And I know her truth
Every time she smiles
She's crying inside
Every time she laughs
She's dying inside
And you'll never know
What she hides
Nobody knows
No, nobody knows
Oh, no, no, no
Nobody knows
And nobody knows her pain
No, nobody knows her fear
Nobody sees her drowning
No one sees her blinded by her tears
Nobody knows what she's hiding inside
Every time she smiles
She's crying inside
Every time she laughs
She's dying inside
And you'll never know
What she hides
Nobody knows
No, nobody knows
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Literature
Rage
Breaking glass
Burn the house
Face the enemy
Fear no more
No more, no
The fires in my hell
Consuming my heart
It hurts, it burns
Scorching my soul
My whole world
Has fallen apart
Get out of here, go
I'll burn the house down
I'll rip it all apart
Turn this goddamn world around
And smash it the hell up
Don't test me
The smoke in my lungs
As I burn on my own pyre
The adrenalin rushing through my veins
As I seal both our fates
You've really pissed me off
Get out of here, go
I'll burn the house down
I'll rip it all apart
Turn this goddamn world around
And smash it the hell up
I'm burning
I'm damned
Consumed with my rage
Drowning in my hate
Eternal
You've pressed the wrong button
And now you'll pay
You won't be forgiven
You won't get away
Blinded with rage
I'll burn the house down
I'll rip it all apart
Turn this goddamn world around
And smash it the hell up
Get out of here, go
Burn the house down
Rip it all apart
Eternal rage
Turn the world around
Smash it all up
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Literature
Free Me
Wracking my brain for an answer
To a question I don't even know
I've been pretty bad with this
But I don't know where to go
It's all in my heart
Consuming my mind
It's all in my soul
Making me blind
Why do I do this?
Why do I hurt myself like this?
Putting myself through hell
I can't take it anymore
Free me, free me
Digging through the debris
Of a past I cannot forget
It's been holding me back
But I really can't help it
It's all in my heart
Consuming my mind
It's all in my soul
Making me blind
Why do I do this?
Why do I hurt myself like this?
Putting myself through hell
I can't take it anymore
Free me, free me
I will be the death of me
I will cry here for the world to see
I will never see you reach out to me
FREE ME
It's all in my heart
Consuming my mind
It's all in my soul
Making me blind
Why do I do this?
Why do I hurt myself like this?
Putting myself through hell
I can't take it anymore
Free me, free me
Free me
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Literature
My Head
Don't let me get the best of me
I'm too tired for this defeat
I lie here where I left me
I've fallen so hard and I can't save me
In my head I'm stronger
I'm smarter
In my head I'm capable
Of anything
In my head I'm powerful
Unstoppable
Why can't this be my reality?
I lie wide awake at night
I'm wishing I could change history
My wishful thinking keeps me up
As I down myself in my regrets
In my head I'm stronger
I'm smarter
In my head I'm capable
Of anything
In my head I'm powerful
Unstoppable
Why can't this be my reality?
If I could change one thing
I'd change almost everything
I'm a perfectionist chasing a dream
My imperfections are my nightmarish reality
In my head I'm stronger
I'm smarter
In my head I'm capable
Of anything
In my head I'm powerful
Unstoppable
Why can't this be my reality?
I know it's impossible
I should stop overthinking
I'm only human
I just want the best for me
In my head I'm stronger
I'm smarter
In my head I'm capable
Of anything
In my head I'm powerful
Unstoppable
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Absolutely LOVE chapter 3. I had slight problems with loading, but I'm boiling that down to having poor internet.. Everything else was ...

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Rachgraceh Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Thanks so much for the watch!
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Thanks for the fav on "Memories of a Dreamer" and for the watch too :D
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thank you so much for faving my anna and elsa dolls =3
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